I Hate Decisions!

The past six months have felt like a whirlwind! Between one of my best friends moving to the other side of the world, my dad getting sick, totalling my car, moving three times, finally making the decision to quit my job, going on interviews, deciding what I'm going to do with the rest of my life, all of my friends having babies, and watching major changes in the direction of my church -- I feel like I can't even breath.

I hate change, I know it's necessary and I know it can be a good thing. But I like being complacent, and I like being safe. And I hate being the one to make change. It's just so much easier to go through the motions, to get tasks done, and just not feel anything. Wake up. Eat. Work. Balance checkbook. Watch TV. And then do it all over again. But that's not what God made us to do! And that is not safe, it's exactly what Satan wants us to think!

I'm reading a book by Erwin McManus titled "Chasing Daylight." Oddly enough the chapter I am read right now is about Choices. He challenges us to abandon the monotony of life and to begin an adventure. And you'll be stuck in the mundane if you refuse to risk all that you have for all that could be. And the life that God calls us to live is nothing less than an adventure. We were born to live a great adventure; we were created with a divine destiny; we were called to fulfill a great mission. We were designed for a unique purpose. Now we're called to live it out!

I could have decided to keep my job, and I could have decided to live in Jacksonville for the rest of my life. But that would be safe and I would just be going through the motions. I have some decisions to make and I just wish that God would speak audibly to me and tell me what to do. As I said before, I hate making decisions. I literally made myself sick when I had to buy a new car, let alone deciding what I'm going to do with the rest of my life. But, this is all part of the adventure! God didn't make us puppets. He created us to live life, to be molded and shaped, to learn, and to make an impact on this world!

Shame on me for getting so caught up in my own life that I forgot to live and to love others.

"Moments are as numerous as the stars in the sky and the sands in the sea, and any of them could prove to be your most significant divine moments. Within those moments, a handful will become the defining moments in your life. However, mundane a moment may appear, the miraculous may wait to be unwrapped within it. You rarely know up front the eternal significance of a moment. When a moment is missed, you have a glimpse at an opportunity lost. When you dream, you look to a moment still to come. The moment that you begin to imagine all the moments you are responsible for, it can become overwhelming. Yet moments are not independent, isolated, or disconnected. What you do with this moment affects every moment to come. This is your moment. The biblical imagery for a moment is the wink of an eye. In other words, don't blink or you'll miss it." -ErwinMcManus

"God will bless your good decisions and redeem your bad ones." -Terry Davis' friend, I can't remember his name.